Faith and Business

Over the past year I’ve written about the ups and downs involved with starting Prologue Games, though one subject has yet to be brought into the discussion: how faith has shaped this journey. Launching a company is scary—it requires putting yourself out there and having faith in your ability to make it happen. No matter your personal beliefs, faith is a factor.

But for me, it runs deeper than the generic faith an entrepreneur must have when venturing something new; it’s about my relationship with God.

To be honest, I’ve held back on the subject until now because I didn’t want to be typecast as a fanatic or scare anyone away. Yet, choosing not to share an important part of my experience as a game developer would be a choice to not tell the full story. If I strive to be authentic about this journey, I have to share the personal aspects alongside production diaries, news announcements, and the like.

This is not a “how-to” or lecture on why a certain set of beliefs are somehow better than others. It’s purely a discussion of challenges I have faced and the conclusions I have come to as an individual. I happen to be a Christian in the general sense of the term. Not a Baptist, Methodist, Catholic, or any other denomination you might equate with a certain set of beliefs. I believe in God the eternal, the all-powerful and that for some inexplicable reason he has decided to love me.

If God is truly perfect and all powerful, there is no possible way I could ever expect to impress or earn this love. I am a messed up, broken, and utterly insignificant collection of atoms. In the span of eternity, I am meaningless. The fact that he loves me is not because I did something to merit his attention or approval. The only explanation is that he decided to choose me out of his unfathomable grace and mercy – with full knowledge of all the stupid things I would do in my life.

This realization puts everything into a unique perspective. The God of the universe chose me. Chose me not because I would be a huge helper, a great companion, or all around charming individual. He chose me because he wanted to. Nothing I do can make him love me more or less. Nothing will change my standing with God.

This releases me to pursue endeavors with a freedom that can’t be found on my own. I can swim in this season of life not because I fear drowning, but because I can enjoy the beauty of the activity. If I start to look down and realize how deep the water is, I can be gently reminded by my wonderful wife that I was made free before I could do anything worthwhile in this life. I am free from condemnation of any form and can refocus my gratitude and enjoyment of the life that I have in front of me.

Do I do this perfectly? Of course not. I still have stressful moments and battle with the temperamental beast of self-worth, but whether Prologue Games succeeds or ultimately fails, I can work hard with the confidence that I am loved by God and that what I do here is all a gift.

The views expressed in this post are solely my own and have no reflection on Prologue Games, its employees, investors, or partners.