Did I mess up?

Hello all,

A short late night blog post, any responses, whether critising/encouring me or general advice will be greatly appreciated. Hell, if someone wants to help me fire away.

I am a second year Software Development Student in college. This year I struggled, not academecally, but to deal with some major changes in my life. Now I openly admit I did not give 100%, and sadly I believe it took this failure on my behalf to understand how important it is to WORK HARD. I do believe that these changes took a toll on me and thus I struggled to pay attention, motivate myself, find any reason to do things. At least I can take away 2 valuable lessons, hard work is a must, Mental Health is too.

Moving on, I failed most of my exams, the repeats for these exams are in around one weeks time. Although I know I am more than capable of passing all of these, the likelyhood of this happening is low.  I believe certain subjects like maths and databases I will struggle to teach to myself...

If I do fail these repeats, my options are limited due to finances, I will not be able to go through second year again without a gap year to work and earn some money. This could be and probably would be helpful. I have no doubt in my mind that I will get this degree with flying colours, It just may take me an extra year because I messed up...

Some of the more private details are not revealed in this, as I am a private person :)

Anyway, its 11 o clock and this is some serious procratination, just thought it would be interesting to see if I got a response.

Any Questions, ask away,

All the Best,

JD